she says my feminine side is too strong, other than that i feature all of the common symptoms of persian males, i suffer from mother complex, i'm insensitive to my female partner and i evaluate my life by morales i don't believe in myself.
i'm extremely self-conscious when i'm talking to her. i have become so good at justifying myself it's almost impossible to utter just the facts and nothing else. i have become all story and no reality. everytime i hear her say anything positive about my personality i know i have done it again, i have made myself look good even though i was trying not to. there's nothing good left in me, it's about time i stopped pretending.
i think my feminine side is a venomous bitch. she lies, she sleeps around, she makes her victims feel good about themselves so that their hearts - no matter how hard or frozen - start pumping new crimson blood into their veins like never before, and when she pokes her fangs into their smooth necks from behind their whole bodies throb in satisfaction while she thrives tasting their fountains of fresh blood. she's utterly revengeful. she's been going down ever since she left, and she strives to take as many as she could down with herself.
i think my feminine side is a whore. i think i'm departing her.
